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Anonymous asked: My boyfriend and I know that we are falling apart but we won't end it because we are in a routine. I really love him and don't want to lose him. I'm selfish and scared
Let me tell you a story. Once upon a time I fell in love with a boy. I put the moon, the stars and all that’s in between into this boy. I gave and gave and gave. He took, took and oh boy he took. I ran myself sick, and I ran myself dry only for him to leave and me to realize I left nothing for myself because I gave it all to him. Trust me, we were in a routine too. We shared a lot. Pictures, dishes, rugs, kisses, I love yous, toothpaste, secrets, tears, sheets, a netflix account, and even a fucking smoothie blender. The day he left I remember buckling and wondering how I would ever pick up and complete myself again. It was terrifying. I’m so thankful. I’m so thankful he left and never gave me answers. You learn the most when you’re alone. You learn the most when you carry yourself through the hurt. You realize it was needed. You realize that you can’t give your all and leave nothing for yourself. You deserve more than routine. (I never drank smoothies anyway)
can i please learn to do this?
He is an airbender
I can’t keep doing this with you.
These thoughts, my body.. & oh God, my breaking bones, they’re all screaming for me to let you go-
But my heart… My heart is begging for me to hold on just a little longer, because maybe we’ll get it together. But my head knows better.
I know better.
This isn’t healthy, the way we love each other is sick.
You’re making me sick.
Some days I want to kill you, other days I want to fuck you to death.
If I didn’t need you like this, I’d set your house on fire the same way you did my soul.
I tell you how I hate you & you laugh because you know I don’t. I know I don’t.
But I think I’m starting to because love shouldn’t feel like the world is ending.
I took the stars from the sky & you used them to make another girl smile but here you are months down the line & you’re sorry.
And I’m trying my hardest to forgive you but it’s not that easy.
So we fight more than we make love but when we do, it’s enough to convince us that this is what we want.
You leave bruises every where because you don’t care if you’re gentle with me & I don’t mind but I wish you’d remember how fragile you made me.
When I tell you how I feel, you swear you need nicotine & that’s fine because as much as I hate choking on your cigarette smoke it’s better than choking on my pride.
I think it’s crazy how someone who’s dead inside can make me feel so alive but then there’s times you want me to feel like you do so you use your words like poison & kill every living thing in me."
- I know this isn’t love, it can’t be. (via caramelcoatedxxxtacy)
me playing Kim Kardashian: Hollywood
all you girls out there had that stage where you played online dress up games dont even lie
what do you mean had
what do you mean girls